you're not something i could have in a snap anyway.

but i tell you this..

someday, i'll find someone just like you.

someone who will make me laugh like you did

someone who will talk to me like you did

someone who will bring out the best in me like you did

someone who will sweep me off my feet like you did

but more importantly, someone who will treat me better than you did

someone who deserves me.

someone better than you.

yeah.

i denied my feelings for him for quite awhile now.

and im fooling nobody. haaay.

weehh i still like you, dammit!!!!

why only now? grrr..

and its that something that i didnt do that im regretting now.

i regret not holding your hand longer.

i regret not allowing you to take me into your arms.

i regret not letting you walk me home..

i regret not saying yes when u asked me to spend more time with you.

but most of all, i regret stopping myself to show you how much i care for you.

tangena, you dont know how much it hurts me to see you move on without me.

to see you drop me just like that.

to know that you're doing just fine without me, while i sit here thinking about you and regretting all those missed oppurtunities that could have made you mine.

ngayon hanggang imagine na lng ako. what we could have been. how we could have been. they say its your loss, what happened-or didnt happen between us.

i say its much as my loss as yours.

i lost a guy who knows how to make me laugh.

i lost a guy who knows what my drinking limit is.

i lost a guy who could make me eat bagoong with toblerone.

i lost a guy who holds my hand when i get splitting headaches when i get tipsy.

i lost a guy who hold me straight just to keep me from banging my head.

i lost a guy who'd tolerate my kasupladahan and may demands.

i lost a guy who could tolerate my kakulitan.

i lost a guy who encourages me to do it, and to not listen to what most people say.

i lost a guy who i knew would do well with or without me.

i lost the greatest guy ive ever met in my entire life.

and its all because of that thing i did not do.

and now i pray to God to give you back to me. and i promise to take care of you and never let go.

these past few days, i though i was ok. i thought ive finally accepted the fact that your not mine to keep. that i could settle for the friendship instead. and then i saw those pix and i realize, i just wasnt ready.

please give him back to me...

whats more fucking irritating is she tells u in the end : lets just forget it na lng!

forget my foot! puta.

how can one forget that?

and then there's the guy who for one night made u feel that maybe there something for both of you. that maybe it wasnt just me. that it could be possible. and then realizing that tangena, he's just like every other guy you've met who's such a dickhead, he enjoys making people biliv that he's the one for her. putangenang mga lalake yan.

i guess its inevitable. boys will always be boys.its not just an option anymore. more like genetics. its in their dna to do stupid stuff to girls who are gullible and stupid like yours truly. maybe i should've just continued hating men, i would've gotten somewhere pa.

dont ever try holding my hand again, i swear to God ill slap and punch you so hard u'd wish uve never met me.

tangena. i cant believe i let my guards down again. tangena. i am such a fucking bitch for assuming things that wasnt even there. tangena. im so fucking stupid.

putangina. oh God i thought you were different! tangena, youre every bit the same as every other guy. putangena. oh god i hate you! but i hate myself more for putanginang falling for you. shit.

then why did i have to sit next to you?

why did you have to insist talking to me?

why did you have to make sure i was ok?

why did you have to ask me to walk me home?

why did you hold my hand under the table?

why was i even there???

tell me. or i will die wandering why.

i will go forward. ive had the needed talks with the people i may hurt in the process and they all said its ok, though it broke my heart when they told me how they would be letting you go.

but i know that id get myself hurt if i dont try now. i have to try. i might get hurt either way anyway.

bahala na.

Who are you thinking about now?
matt

Who did you last talk to on the phone?
kuya jon2.

Whose house did you last go to?:
i forgot.

Whose birthday is next?
i dunno.

Who was the last person you told you loved?:
c matt. hahaha.

Who do you hope will take this survey?:
i dunno. c  matt?.


WHAT's

What was the last thing you ate?:
fried fish.

What was the last thing you drank?
h2o.

What is the closest item near you that is blue?:
mouse pad.

What instant messaging service do you use?:
YM.

What is your favorite color?:
green blue black n red.

What is your most used away message?
brb?.

What is your favorite website?:
blocparty.com -- for the moment. cant get enough of matt.

What is your favorite shoe brand?:
nothing in particular.

What song are you currently hearing?:
linger by cranberries.


WHERE'S

Where do you live?:
cavite.

Where is your phone?
i dunno. hahaha.

Where do you sleep?:
my mom's room

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?:
tutuban.

Where did you get this survey?:
friendster

WHEN'S

When is your birthday?:
dec 16.

When did you last burn a candle?:
i made it that candle, and burnt it for test drive. :P.

When did you last see your dad?:
last year. :(


WHY'S

Why does basically half the world have a
Friendster?
because they're friendlY?? haha i dont know..

Why do we have to go to school?:
to learn, meet new people. and trash talk most professors. :D

Why are you taking this survey?:
to lighten up the mood of this blog..